Triple digits to triathlon

Well, this is not working yet. I started off well this year, dropping 4 kg already, taking ice skating lessons and hitting the gym a couple of times but after 2 successive colds I'm a bit stuck.  I've also failed to hit the swimming pool yet.  Why is it not working?  Looking inside, I think I lack the discipline to do things when they're not compulsory, planned, and/or in a group. Somewhere during and after my darker years I've lost the balance in being kind to myself vs discipline.  Ideally, I should find a way to include discipline as being kind to myself, or even interpret it as self-love maybe? Anyway, new week, new opportunities - starting with an extra time ice skating!

It's 4am and I want to turn the page.  For the past weeks I've been slowly getting off my ass again, but I want a clear goal. This time, it will have clear, specific, measurable intermediate targets.  So - let's sign up for a triathlon in September!  It's 221 days to go.  I haven't swum in ages, my (way too fancy) bike is collecting dust, and I'm too heavy to go running without getting injured.  Sounds like a plan, eh?  Besides this, I'm getting fed up with my job and I want to solve both problems in one go - stop identifying with a job and a career, focus on a larger goal as a side hustle, and see work as a means to make money for living.  I can't do that without a big goal. So Apeldoorn - and swimming pool, roads, gym and sidewalks - here I come!